I had you one summer. And then it was fall. Where summer counts for nothing at all.
Today I saw you for a moment through a crack in the door. A fraction of a second, no more. Were you looking back at me, my love? Were you looking back at me, my love?
Did we share a little moment, then? Heaven forbid? Or was it only me again, dreaming we did?
The passing of seasons, the setting of suns, the sequences of zeroes and ones. Do they all add up to nothing? IS there nothing we shared? I know you owe me nothing, that's fair. But I wonder if you see, my love, yes I wonder if you see my love, what has happened to the world outside since autumn has come? The birds are flying south again. Our fingers are numb. Look at how lazy I've become.
I've lost my way before now. And every time I end up crying like some horrible woman who cries over men. I'll have to cry for you all over again. I don't know why we have to suffer so much. Why do people have to?
I wish I'd done better. I wish I could say I'd given you incentive to stay, because I'm bored and I blame you for letting me go. But don't say you're sorry, I know that it wasn't meant to be, my love. That it wasn't meant to be, my love. And I'm going to have to deal with this, like it or not. I'm going to have to deal with this, no matter what.
credits
from JUVENAL!A,
track released December 1, 2010
Composer: Theodor Wilson
The German artist's so-called "digital psychedelic journey" infuses sterling classical and jazz forms with trippy, tuneful synth melodies. Bandcamp New & Notable May 5, 2024