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(delusional donovan)
00:43
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Reality has never meant much to me, Donovan.
Don't talk to me about real life.
Don't talk to me about real.
Cause I can be whoever I want to be anyway, baby, and I'm not afraid.
It's all a masquerade.
Don't talk to me about real life.
Don't talk to me about real life.
Don't talk to me about real life.
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DEMOCRACY
05:07
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You're bluffing.
You're not okay.
You're totally in shock.
Revolution left a hangover.
The confetti fell to the ground and rotted.
Didn't anyone tell you, I'm coming.
I'm on my way.
I'm running through the dark.
Every evening ends in time for dawn.
Every day gives way to get the evening started.
You little shit.
Now you have to admit, you have to admit.
You have to admit,
you let the easy answer strike you dumb,
because you never imagined that your day would come.
Didn't anyone tell you
it's a Democracy?
And everybody old was young once?
I guarantee you that the same thing happens,
no matter whose god you serve.
And so the consequence
is that you don't deserve
any more time at the top
than anybody else deserves.
So I don't care if you feel like a good boy today.
Cause I feel like I'm turning the page.
I feel like I'm turning the page.
No, don't turn the page,
it could end my life.
Slow readers save lives.
Slow readers save lives.
No we bid farewell to our brighter days
that have lasted longer than they should have lasted.
You have to admit.
You have to admit.
You have to admit.
Admit it baby we all knew
that you thought it would never catch up with you.
Didn't anyone tell you,
you're nothing?
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FREDDY'S DEAD
03:30
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Freddy's dead. He died on fire island. He was my one true love. I'll never love again. I'll never find a man to fill in Freddy's shoes. He was my boyfriend. And now he's dead.
He went out in the ocean with everybody watching. They like to watch my Freddy. He spent time on his body. He went out body-surfing. Just this morning. And hit his head. Poor Fred. My poor Fred. My Fred.
And now I weep, weep, weep in the time share that he left me. I don't know how I'll carry on without my Freddy.
Margarita! Body-shot to Freddy. I'm cruising in his memory. I feel a certain sadness that maybe things are different. But nothing's really different on Fire Island. At night we still go dancing. And now this boy I'm cruising, he kind of looks like Freddy. He says his name is Peter. I say It's Nice to Meet You. He says that he knew Freddy. Freddy, my dead boyfriend. I take him home.
To my bed. To freddy's bed. Peter. Peter/Fred.
And we have fun, fun, fun in the bed that Freddy made today. I know that somewhere Freddy's proud I'm getting laid today.
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4. |
15-MINUTE-RULE
03:42
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I had you one summer. And then it was fall. Where summer counts for nothing at all.
Today I saw you for a moment through a crack in the door. A fraction of a second, no more. Were you looking back at me, my love? Were you looking back at me, my love?
Did we share a little moment, then? Heaven forbid? Or was it only me again, dreaming we did?
The passing of seasons, the setting of suns, the sequences of zeroes and ones. Do they all add up to nothing? IS there nothing we shared? I know you owe me nothing, that's fair. But I wonder if you see, my love, yes I wonder if you see my love, what has happened to the world outside since autumn has come? The birds are flying south again. Our fingers are numb. Look at how lazy I've become.
I've lost my way before now. And every time I end up crying like some horrible woman who cries over men. I'll have to cry for you all over again. I don't know why we have to suffer so much. Why do people have to?
I wish I'd done better. I wish I could say I'd given you incentive to stay, because I'm bored and I blame you for letting me go. But don't say you're sorry, I know that it wasn't meant to be, my love. That it wasn't meant to be, my love. And I'm going to have to deal with this, like it or not. I'm going to have to deal with this, no matter what.
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THE BAKERSFIELD CHIMP
03:59
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You can shave a chimp and dress him like a man
And he can be to you what I have been
And I can be a man again
And I'll do what I want to do
And you can play pretend.
He looks a lot like me
It's just a matter of degree
The two of you are bound in love
At least as good as yours and mine.
We did the best we could, it's fine.
And I'm okay.
He's the perfect pal, the perfect fan,
Look at him go.
He can give you things that I never can.
Whoa.
He doesn't even know he's being so screwed over.
He doesn't even know he's being so screwed over.
He doesn't even know that he's alive.
He doesn't even know that he's a monkey.
He was born to please
He's right at home on his hands and knees
But I've evolved a few degrees
I stand upright, and when I do
I'm almost like a man, it's true.
I walk and talk and tie my shoe.
And you just play with the monkey.
He doesn't even know he's being so screwed over.
He doesn't even know he's being so screwed over.
He can give you things that I never can.
Let the animal replace the man.
He doesn't even know that he's alive.
He doesn't even know that he's a monkey.
He doesn't even know that he's alive.
Yet.
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6. |
MY LITTLE VIOLENCE
04:14
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No, you shouldn't have my dear.
What is this? What is this?
Did you have to plant it here
In my system what is this?
This little lump of violence that I find?
Well I suppose that I am now combined
With my little violence. He's mine.
He's my little violence. And I feel such joy.
Toward my little violence. Toward my little boy.
And the thing is you honestly may be honestly enormous.
But you're no bigger than me
And the fact that they've got you in my throat
Doesn't mean for a second that I plan to choke
I am used to being treated rough
Every time I thought I had found love it felt like someone trying to kill me.
And I tried to tell it to my dear.
Tell it to my dear.
And I try not to hold him close
Still we're barely apart.
And the deeper that he goes
The closer he comes to my heart.
And you can always find him on my side.
This little lump whose shelter I provide,
He's my little violence. He's mine.
He's my little violence. Hey there little guy.
Listen, little violence, you know it's only you or I.
And the thing is the thing about you
Is that you're a motherfucker.
But I am a motherfucker too,
And the fact is the money isn't on your team
And you aren't quite as special as you'd like to seem.
Now I'll have to send you on your way.
Today was not your day.
And I tried to tell it to my dear.
Tell it to my dear.
Tell it to my dear.
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7. |
LIBRARY
03:17
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Dreams do come true, then.
My dream has come.
He might've used me,
But I don't mind if he used me.
Cause this was all I imagined it would be.
And I'm just really so flattered that he used me.
My day has come.
Library. My library.
Think of my kindly, and baby always know:
You have my body to lend check out or borrow.
In my life, I've never, never been so happy.
In my life. I've never been so happy.
In my life. I've never been so happy.
My day has come.
Library. My library.
I had it coming,
My day was overdue.
I hope he knows he
Can use me when he wants to.
Library. My library.
Library. My library.
Library.
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8. |
WHAT'S LEFT OVER AFTER
16:05
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part 1.
I love baby, but my baby's not around.
I throw my letters to my baby on the ground.
And it ain't nobody's business.
And it ain't nobody's business.
And I love baby, and my baby's so fine.
I play checkers with my baby all the time.
And it ain't nobody's business.
And it ain't nobody's business.
part 2.
Sweet sweet baby.
I would rather die than let you go.
And I was always crazy.
But you never really seemed to know.
Sweet sweet baby.
I read over your letters every day.
And when you come to save me.
Promise you will take me far away.
We're just turning our lives around.
Turning our lives around.
Turning our lives around.
Sweet sweet baby.
I believe in lobe, and love, and love, and love.
And I believe in baby's
Power to good and all that stuff.
And sweet sweet baby,
Just a little thing you ought to know.
You're my baby,
and I am never going to let you go.
We're just turning our lives around.
Turning our lives around.
Turning our lives around.
Turning our lives around...
part 3.
I'm coming out, I'm coming out...
Oh, God, what have you done?
You shattered my heart for a little thrill.
And I hope it was fun.
You never knew how to love me then.
Now you never will.
Oh, God, what have you done?
Now what have you done?
Oh, God, what have you done?
Now what hav eyou done?
Up, up, up and away.
Thought I had it figured out this time.
But I didn't quite.
You have lasted a day.
And I know that you won't be mine
By tomorrow night.
Oh, God, what have you done?
Now what have you done?
Oh, God, what have you done?
Now what have you done?
Hold me now.
Swear to God.
Say you believe, you believe, you believe,
These arms I'm holding out are not
Going to leave, going to leave, going to leave, going to leave.
Now what have you done?
Now what have you done?
Oh, God, what have you done?
Now what have you done?
Now what have you done?
Etc.
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9. |
STILL LIFE
02:34
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Dreams do come true, then.
My dream has come.
He might've used me,
But I don't mind if he used me.
Cause this was all I imagined it would be.
And I'm just really so flattered that he used me.
My day has come.
Library. My library.
Think of my kindly, and baby always know:
You have my body to lend check out or borrow.
In my life, I've never, never been so happy.
In my life. I've never been so happy.
In my life. I've never been so happy.
My day has come.
Library. My library.
I had it coming,
My day was overdue.
I hope he knows he
Can use me when he wants to.
Library. My library.
Library. My library.
Library.
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